This morning when I woke up, after M. left, I found 10 pages on his side of the bed.
I am not over sentimental, neither the girly type to cry - but this one left me in tears, a feeling of explosion in my heart - too much beauty.
We spoke and reflected recently why we got together and I told him how sometimes I did not really understood how he could love me so unconditionally. In this gesture I am clearly reminded, why I am giving my life to this beautiful soul.
I am so deeply thankful
for having you in my life
you are so incredibly beautiful,
and strong, and true
I love your soul
it inspires me so deeply
everyday
much, much, much Love
:)))))
Lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of reasons why I love you Angela.
1.
I love how I can easily write down SIXTY!, not 10, not 15, not 20, SIXTY! reasons why I love you.
2.
I love that you are strange, like a person from another world sometimes that I can't figure out, like a dream. But like a dream I love how I can't ever stop thinking about you until I understand you.
3.
I love that we met in an acting class in Prague. Every time I tell someone that story they always look at me like it was an incredible thing to happen, especially after I tell them that you were Portuguese and I came all the way from South Africa.
4.
I love that you held my hand and never let go as we travelled and explored Prague and Germany and now London. I love that we took that journey together because I think it is special and unique and I will never do so with anyone else again as long as I live.
5.
I love seeing you grow over the years we’ve been together. I love how I have seen you become more sensitive, more generous, more caring and a deeper human being than the person I fell in love with.
6.
I love that you are creative and artistic and always dreaming and creating and that you need some way to express yourself.
7.
I love your blog, how rich and varied it is and how it gives me a chance to see the beauty inside you.
8.
I love when you sit there working in your photos. I love the look on your face, don't ask me to explain it, I just love it, not everything needs to be analysed.
9.
I love seeing you naked in the shower in the mornings. I don't love that you never let me shower with you!
10.
I love your integrity, how you always are honest with people and true to yourself no matter the consequences/ .
11.
I love how you protected that poor New Zealand girl at Whistles and that you spend time with lonely, sometimes grumpy Jennifer.
12.
I love how you always say what you think and speak your mind.
13.
I love all the photographs that you are taking. I love how you are trying to record your life. I hope you never stop because one day I look forward to seeing it and remembering.
14.
I love and envy that you can draw so well.
15.
I love that sound you make whenever you see a dog. It makes me love you even more.
16.
I love how you hide behind me and hold onto me like your life depended on it whenever you see a pigeon.
17.
I love how you treat my parents with love and respect. I love that my mom is your friend.
18.
I love how you forced me to stop feeling sorry for myself and write again.
19.
I admire how you want to go to New York and pursue your dancing dream.
20.
I love your dress style.
21.
I love how you can be elegant and sophisticated but still remain down to earth and unpretentious.
22.
I love how you are never common or tacky.
23.
I love how you are always exploring what it means to be Angela. I love seeing you make progress.
24.
I love that you have an extraordinary, vast, rich inner world that I can see in everything you create and every time you tell me about your dreams about the sea which is a recurring theme in your life. You know how much I love that sea!
25.
I love that you are equally balanced between an extrovert and an introvert and how you easily you can move between the two. I am amazed because I am mostly only one type.
26.
I love how you have a special box with Tarot cards at home, even if it freaks me out a little bit.
27.
I love that you accept me for who I am, the way I am and that you are understanding and patient even tough who I am is sometimes annoying.
28.
I love that you thought I was worthy enough to fall in love with in Prague.
29.
I love that when you are happy you just start singing and dancing like a gypsy at home in the living room. I love how happy you make me to see you like that.
30.
I am proud of your free-spirt and independence and that you are following your heart.
31.
I love that you value experience and self-knowledge over money.
32.
I love how strong you can be and how fragile you can be.
33.
I love that you made me think about this because I am enjoying thinking of all the little things that make you special, and it is the reason why I can never tell you just one thing I love about you. it is all these things I am writing and so much more that I will never have the words for.
34.
I love how expressive your eyes are. I love the warmth in it.
35.
I love how sensual your mouth is. And how when you really like the taste of something you chew with your mouth open.
36.
I love how your nose is strong and how sharp your sense of smell is.
37.
I love how you supported me when I started to write. I love that you gave me the first idea for one of my stories.
38.
I love how you have grown to be even more strong now than the person I fell in love with all those years ago.
39.
I love how when I first met you I found you mysterious. I love how after all these years, I still do.
40.
I love how we have a history that can never be replaced. I love how we spent some of the best years of our lives together. How we have grown and the people we have become.
41.
I love how we never let go of each other, even when things were hard sometimes. I love how we have always kept our promise to hold each other’s hands as we walk through this life. I can't imagine holding any one else’s hand ever.
42.
I love how small your hands are. How they fit so well in mine. I love to warm them up when they are cold.
43.
I love the sound of your laughing, like rain falling on my soul when I am tired and feeling down.
44.
I love how sometimes you look at me like you are a little girl and I am your best friend in all the world.
45.
I love how you are my absolute best friend in the world that I have ever had or that I will ever need. I love that I can tell you things I can't tell anyone else. I love how I can bring my troubles to you, even though that doesn't come naturally to me. I love how I feel lighter after I have shared them with you.
46.
I love how you make me want to be better than I think I am and how you always believe in me, even when I don't.
47.
I love how you feel when you’re in my arms, and how I feel like I am home.
48.
I love the sound of you walking up the stairs, the sound of your key turning in the door, and seeing your face when you walk into he living room and I have been waiting for you. My heart would break into a million pieces if I have never saw you coming home again.
49.
I love how you are cheeky and give me attitude and how we can play and tease each other. I love our fights too.
50.
I love how you act like a kid and never share your food when it is something really yummy, how you refuse to even give me the tiniest bite.
51.
I love how beautiful you look when you dance, how your eyes seem to be staring at some secret undiscovered world that no one else will ever get you see. I love how peaceful and serene and content you look when you dance. It is beautiful to me.
52.
I love that you know me better than anyone else in the world. I love how think I know you better than anyone else in the world. I love how am learning to know what you are thinking, just by looking at your face.
53.
I love that you are healthy and happy and with me and I can only be grateful and pray it will always be so.
54.
I love that you are my ideal of a woman: free-spirited, open minded, free thinking, independent, curious, strong sometimes, fragile sometimes, beautiful to look at and with a big, strong, brave and caring heart.
55.
I love that so much of the child will always be alive in you.
56.
I love how beautiful you always look to me, and that you never believe when I tell you, and that maybe you never ever, ever believe me no matter how many times I tell you. I think you are a hottie my beautiful Angela.
57.
I love the strangeness of your ideas.
Like how you don't want me to call you mine.
Like how you are so fatalistic always.
Like how you think you are so tough and independent but cried when I said I loved you for the first time.
58.
I love how you come to me with your problems, and how I feel when some times I can help you and make you feel better.
59.
I love and never regret a single minute we have spent together and I look forward to all the ones to come.
60.
I love even the things that annoy me about you. All those little quirks. All the bad habits. I love them because they are part of you and make you who you are and that without them you would be someone different, someone else not the person I fell in love with and still love and love and love.
61.
I love how you are a true original. How you see and feel the world like no one else I have ever met. I Iove how you follow no one else but your own heart.
62.
I love how you are humble enough to learn new things and about yourself as you go through life. I love how you can make realisations and discover things and that you are always changing the longer I know you.
63.
I love that I am lucky enough to spend my life with you. Every day, minute and second. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
64.
I love the connection that we have. That spark that made us fall in love with one another in Prague. I love that its still alive and that it has grown into a bond stronger than I ever thought was possible. I love that its still here. I love that belief I had when I first started to get to know you is still here and alive and healthy and well inside me. All those years ago, I couldn't have known when I first met you, all I had then was this feeling, this faith and belief that you were the only one for me.
65.
I love that this list could go on if I thought about more things I love about you. Little things like how you still have the same first as when we first arrived and you never needed another one. I could list those and probably never stop writing.
66.
I love how this list can grow the longer we spend together.
67.
I love you Angela. I just do. Its like when I first met you and I felt like you were the one person I could stay with forever. It was just a feeling. You couldn't think and analyse it. it just was. I still have that feeling about you. That is all there is to know about my love for you. That feeling when I first met you. That’s why I love you. It is all the reasons and where all of the reasons come from - from my love to you.
