For a exception, real life has gone into the way and for the past two
years i have lived more in the real life than in my mind, aka my
expression work, amond so many other things I have reaccessed my
personal signification and value of certain words like CREATIVE and ART,
deciding to self entitle my work as EXPRESSIVE rather than CREATIVE, I
find it more truthful and I occur less risk and temptation in falling
into a pitiful self-egocentric creative artistic label. I find it
increasingly embarrassing, and my goal on my personal journey initiated 5
years ago, is to stay as faithful as possible to what TRUTH means to me
in these days we live in: no career but also not refusing to work, no
social making but also interacting genuinely with people, no financial
success but also no economical irresponsibility. More than ever I find
personal reassurance in denying looking or gaining personal value
trough social, external or materialist ( being career ). So I continue
trying to make my MAKING, my personal value and identify by solely
existing as truthful as possible as MYSELF : Angela born Portuguese in
1975, currently living in London. Just being a human being, a
individual.
For the better or the worst, and stripped down to the bare essentials,
who am I? Who I am withouth my friends, my job, my clothes, my
lifestyle?
How can I identify and explain myself to me and to others, to society without a social circle, a career or a lifestyle?
What is my core as a individual human being? what are my strengths, my
roles and my vulnerabilities? That is my passion, my PERSONAL TRUTH,
this journey, this discovery.
It has been a turbulent, full of action , to fast period where I only
had the option to react to events. In reactive rather than in choice
mode.
The consequences emerge know, the conclusions, the reassessments. Part
of being truly TRUTHFUL is the capability of going back to old issues
and reassess them, testing your own truths, in humility and in
expectation to learn more, to go deeper just one more layer, closer,
closer to the biggest mystery of all: TRUTH, PERSONAL TRUTH.
