THANK YOU - PIVOTAL 2010

Were already mid Feb. 2011
2011 approached fast and arrived even faster
leaving me almost with no time to think

but I make time now
as I must stop and register
that 2010 has been probably
one of the most if not yet the most
important year in my life

it surely has been pivotal
i was a completely different person in 2009,
2010 plugged in that deep change,
and know I walk into 2011
a utterly different person

so different I cannot really recall
or remember
or recognize so well me in 2009

It was just so much overwhelming CHANGE
at so many levels, I still feel overwhelmed
and it is hard to pin it down in words

in some way
the overall feeling is that I feel
I have dyed, reborned
and somehow am now starting to be who I always was meant to be ( if that can be said or even thinked at all )

most of the times
I dont worry about the future
I just kinda of feel
this inner calm
and acceptance that whatever will be will be
and that I have not worry
for I am walking in the right path
life itself is taking me,
where I need to go

Here some of the facts of 2010 , I want to keep a record,
on no particular order or relevance:

- quitted fashion -  jobless
- renunciated to career and fashion career
- decided not to pursue any career in any field anymore
- got a foot injury -  could not dance for 2 months - forced to slow down
- went to physioh, healed injury -  started dancing again
- started skin release movement -  felt really special
- started movement performance training
- started butoh training
- started comt. dance training
- pursued inconsequently passions to the end
- took some steps closer to the concept of letting go
- learned how much is my worth, how blessed I am with who I am as a human being and a woman
- traveled to france - toulouse -  payed karma
- traveled to NY - Brooklyn
- met and learned from Yukio Suzuki
- met and learned  from Yuko Cosakesi
. met and learned from Atsushi
- met and learned from Tino Seghal
- made new friends
- met a lot of reassuring people who encourage my creativity and inspired me
- discovered photography as a personal artistic expression
- took a lot of wonderful shots
- decided to shot in film only
- made time for creative self practice
- developed and is still developing movement performance own practice
- felt positive most of  time
- felt happy most of time
- laughed a lot
- reconnected with old friends
- started working as a fine art life model
- worked with painters for exhibitions
- had  my first fine art model work exhibited at painting exhibition
- served the muse role
- met many new wonderful people
- got a extra role at ELECTRIC HOTEL show in London

for all of this and all the rest, all those split of seconds of happiness and peace
thank you 2010
the year of the METAL TIGER
when I became a NEW PERSON

xxx
love and bless
xxxxxxx